So I havent posted in like two years and im pretty sure most of the people that follow me are long gone but anyone who had followed me for awhile knows i have struggled with anxiety/depression/being suicidal for many years now and I just made my first appointment to get help with that it only took me like 8 years but you know progress is progress anyway I am writing this so i can hopefully look back on it and say that things are better than they were when I wrote this